I like that, vordan, but to be honest, I know very little about Christianity. I have tons of Bibles at home, but they're just not very interesting, and I have so much other stuff to do. I also agree with you, earthmuffin, because I believe that each religion has truth in it. It's just the idea that I'm decieving them that bothers me the most, but I don't want them to disown me. I ask the questions partly because I'm interested in her beliefs, and partly because I want her to think I share them. She said that to know if her god is telling me, I should pray and I should look for parts of the Bible that speak to me.
I feel like I'm betraying my grandparents, my religion, and myself when I decieve them, but I love them, and I want them to love me. I've heard that if they really love me they'll accept me no matter what, but I'm not so sure about that, and even if it's true, I don't want to know if they don't.
Other than that, I would like to just keep my beliefs to myself. It's just hard because my grandmother finds a way to mention her god in almost every conversation. Sometimes, she mentions him in a good way, like saying he loves everyone and doesn't want me to die, but other times she says things like he doesn't like the "homosexual lifestyle" and things like that. When she mentions him in a good way, I see the wisdom of Christianity, but when she mentions him in a bad way, I see the hatred it exudes.