Yes, I've been not commenting for a while because things have been pretty hard for me lately. I even have intertia just starting this post, but that's probably more of Autism than anything else.
I feel like I would love to start doing a small offering/purification ritual every morning, or with some form of regularity, and I've been feeling this way for quite a while, but I've been held up because I'm afraid that I'll miss a day and disappoint my gods (I have less control over my schedule than I would like because of my age). I don't think I'll Incure Their Wrath or be Struck Down, but I've never liked disappointing anyone. I know this is irrational because it's probably worse to do nothing (or nothing regularly) than to do it most days and miss one day, but I can't get out of the fear. It's just like in college where if I forget to turn in work I'll be afraid to turn it in the next day, or if I'm a little late for class I'll be afraid to go at all because I don't want the professor to get mad at me. No matter how many times people have said, "Better Late Than Never," I still have that fear. I think I have a much better chance at getting over this fear than I did the other one, though.
I know that it's not EsSEnTiAl for everyone to do a ritual every day, or every week, or whatever, but I feel like it would work for me if I could just start doing it and not mess up. It's overwhelming, but it would be great if I could succeed. Can anyone help me with this?